this feeling is not new but it is pressing down on me worse than ever. i just want to type it out a little, i could put this into evernote, but i think it’s better if it goes here, then when i look back i will really see my stream-of-consciousness thought for what it is. will it scare me? that i was like this? maybe not, since i’ve never been able to do two things at once. whatever i choose to focus my life on at the moment will surely be flawless, but i will be a one-track mind. nothing can stop me i’ll just keep barreling ahead until i get what i want. until that happens, how’s a girl to think about other inconsequential things? today i’m going to perfect one little slice of life. tomorrow, i’ll work on the next. who said it was a lonely road to the top? they were right.